Broken
Broken: Reduced to fragements; torn; ruptured; fractured; not functioning properly; out of working order; infringed or violated; disconnected, weakened in strength or spirit; to make a way through; penetrate.
So many of us have found ourselves in at least one of these words. The word broken has such a heavy meaning to it. Every word described hurts with brokenness. I don’t know why but I am troubled by this thought of being broken. It is a painful paradox. In order to grow, to move forward, truly, we have to be broken in some way. Broken thought pattern, broken actions, broken physically, emotionally, spiritually. We have to come apart in order to be put back together in a better way than what we were before. Some of us never allow ourselves to be put back together. We become full of pride and build walls around our brokenness not letting anyone come in or see how bad we are truly hurting. We carry on in our broken state becoming more and more broken and more and more in pain, hurting everyone around us. We are like Midas with the golden touch instead, we have the hurtful touch. What is it that helps us change from our broken ways? Humbleness? Obedience? A death to self? I have found in my brokenness that I can fight all I want and build up my walls, but I will never win. I will become bitter, ugly to the core, selfish. I will never change unless I give up my hurt, my pain, the ruptured fragmented way of me. And when I do, the change is so radical that it frightens me yet excites me for who I could become. I trade my ugly broken self for someone who is beautifully restored, put back together. The old self becomes a blur in time and I continue to move forward into the person I was made to be all along.
There is more to life than wasting it on our hurt broken self. It is not an easy thing to get over, to change, but it is one that we should change and move on from. Myself does not deserve pity or wallowing. I will build myself a grave if I stay in that mindset. You are missing out on who you could be if you decide to stay in that mindset. There is so much more of yourself that you don’t even know because you sit and waste time over your brokenness which you have already been restored from.
These are just some thoughts that I had that I needed to write out.
Know that He loves you through your brokenness and will see you to the end of it. He will never give up on you. He is faithful.
