Finding it hard to breathe…
You ever feel surrounded by so many people, suffocated even, yet you feel so alone?
Feelings emerge of not belonging anymore, not fitting in anymore, time to move on.
Even in the quite times where you are alone and there is time to think, its hard to be at peace. Mind is constantly racing, thoughts of good things and bad.
What does real rest look like? Being fully refreshed, able to breathe with no hesitation. New life seems so far away, a new place, a new pair of eyes.
I feel so crowded even in my own thoughts.
I am aching for a place to get away, to really rest, to not wake up within the night, with pain, with tired eyes. I am desperately wanting a drink of water that will satisfy every part of me.
I want him. I need him.
He is what gives breath to my lungs. He provides for me daily. I need his embrace daily. I am nothing without him.
